Thursday, October 10, 2019

Far Too Long

2017... that is the last time I had posted anything at all on the site. Can you believe that? Sure, I have been around YouTube and a few forums along the way, but nothing here at the place that began it all. I wish I could promise that I will be able to sit down and commit to writing on a daily or even weekly basis, but I think we all know, even if I said so, that it would be highly unlikely. So much has changed in my life, and yet there is still an air of familiarity about this... it just feels right. So you may wonder why I have brushed the dust off of the site? Well, the honest truth is that I miss writing. This was my own little way of getting things off of my chest. Sometimes simple things like game mechanics or interactions with other players, and sometimes it was deeper... like discussing the death of my Father. I really miss him still... eleven years and it never gets any easier. No matter what though, this site... no, this blog... it was my special place. Now I'll admit that it saw its share of random posts that bordered on rants, but for the most part, aside from a few guest writers here and there, it was all me. It was my therapy. It was my medicine. It was my way of finding peace in the midst of so much chaos. In that response just now, is the reason for coming back once again.

So what has changed since November of 2008? I wouldn't know where to begin honestly. I can say with all certainty that I have grown. That growth has sometimes been for good and sometimes for the not so good things in life. I am sure over the last decade plus, I have mentioned various circumstances and situations, but for full disclosure let's just hit the highlights. After my Father had passed, I spent a long period of my life struggling with what I thought was chest pains due to stress. It turns out it was actually something called Generalized Anxiety Disorder or GDA. Think of that as where they stuff all the random anxiety disorders that can have a huge impact on your life. It is a life changer, that is for sure; however, knowing what you face definitely lets you gather a solid party of people around you who will look out for you when you may not realize that you are in need. In 2013, my first marriage ended, but if I were to be honest, it was over long before that point in time. I wish I could say that it was a pleasant divorce (if there is such a thing), but it was not. It was nasty and the effects of it are still felt. It's a topic I do not talk much about, except to say that it took a lot out of me and cost me far more than I realized at the time. You know though, life is abundant and with the downs, there will be just as many ups. I remarried in 2017 and my daughter was born in 2018. Yeah, hard to believe that in my forties, I was blessed with a beautiful and perfect baby girl. I cannot even begin to express my love for her. Along the way, there has been the struggles that we all face in the areas of finance, relationships, and finding a good balance between our home, social, and work life. I don't have it all down and I am constantly reminded of how imperfect I am. That just simply means that there is a lot of opportunities for me to improve.

So what can you expect from this rebirth? I wish I knew! I wish I could lay down a plan for the next month, year, decade, and so on. I simply cannot. What I can say is that it feels good to have cracked open the old blog site and relaunched! It feels good knowing that once again, I can share my thoughts on things both in game and out. I have no preconceived notion, no strategy, or any other game plan. I simply plan to write from the viewpoint of where I sit. So I invite you to introduce (or reintroduce) yourself around here and let's create a community that will support and uplift one another as we adventure through life together!

Far Too Long

2017... that is the last time I had posted anything at all on the site. Can you believe that? Sure, I have been around YouTube and a few for...